Looking for insight on the inside

I saw the movie Julie and Julia today, and it has inspired me. First it was a delightful movie, full of laughs, heart and perseverance. But if these two women can live their lives by learning to cook thus learning to live then, why can't I do the same thing? Yes, I failed yet again on the weight issue. I did not reach my goal, I'm still fat. After I got sick in July I stopped. There is allot to blog and catch up on from the past few months. Michael's new job, Kayden's new preschool(which they both love), potty training, Girl's night out, family, seeing shows, and all other summer events. Which I will.

Then there is me.... Always looking for insight on the inside. I want to look in mirror and see happiness. I want to be proud of who I am. My 34th birthday is in 2 mouths from today, and yes I don't mind owning that number. I have a few goals in mind that I don't want to share yet. Fall is my favorite season, but always a hard time for me. It is bittersweet and takes me back to a past that I can't let go of. Moments and memories that I hold so close to my heart, the corners are bent and the vibrant colors are now faded. In the film, Julie spent a year cooking 500 + of Julia Child's recipes and changing her life along the way, I can make changes in two mouths. Change is good, tho fighting since I have failed so so many times before. But I should look at it and image this beautiful big blue Tiffany box which is in my arms' length. And all I must do is work a little harder to pop that lid off and see what wonderful treasure awaits me on the inside.