Where were you when the world stop turning that September day....

"Undivided," --- Bon Jovi

That was my brother lost in the rubble
That was my sister lost in the crush
That was our mothers, those were our children
That was our fathers, that was each one of us
A million prayers to God above
A million tears make an ocean of

[chorus:]
One for love
One for truth
One for me, one for you

I found spirit, they couldnt ruin it
I found courage in the smoke and dust
I found faith in the songs you silenced
Deep down its ringing out in each of us
Yeah... yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

[chorus:]
One for love
One for truth
One for me, one for you

Where we once were divided, now we stand united
We stand as one... undivided.
How many hands? how many hearts?
How many dreams been torn apart?
Enough, enough... the time has come to rise back as

[chorus:]
One for love
One for truth
One for me, one for you

Where we once were divided now we stand united
We stand as one... undivided.

Undivided.
Undivided.

One for love
One for truth
One for me, one for you
Where we once were divided, now we stand united
We stand as one... undivided.

As we move forward today after eight years , I hope people remember the lives that were lost on this day. It breaks my heart that each year the media and "we" the people think less and less about what happen. This morning I watch the footage of 9/11, and it just felt like yesterday. I always hold my breath, in fear of something else happening every year on this day. That day had such an impacted on how I see things. It changed us all forever.


Michael and I both were student teaching in Keller, at Bear Creek Intermediate. One of the many awful memories of my horrible time at BCI and student teaching. I can't begin to tell you how much I dislike Keller. We were in the library for a TAKS meeting. A coach ran in and turned on the t.v. and the silence in the room was unbelievable and something I will never forget. I can tell you so many details about that day, even what I was wearing. A denim dress, dark red scarf and brown shoes. I never wore that dress again. It was hard being in a school and not knowing what to say to the students. Many of them knew the tragic events, because we did not start till 9:30. The school was buzzing with so many rumors, they hit the white house, ect. Luckily I worked in the Special Education department, since no kids came to CM we got to watch the news coverage most of the day. It was the first time I truly understood what evil was. I had gone to New York early in the year. And to this day can not remember seeing the towers, which I know we saw and that truly makes me sad.

Labor Day Weekend and Things.....

We had a good holiday weekend. No big plans. But we did get invited to Charles and Ann Porters (My JoJo's in-laws) Sunday night for dinner. They live not very far from Nonnie, so we stop by for a visit. She was in the dining hall when we got there and was finishing up. So Michael pushed her back to her room. Kayden was so sweet he held her hand all the way just smiling. What a picture that would have made. But no camera. I think it made her day because she just smiled too and said over and over "how pretty he is." That is one image that will stay in my heart. My 88 year old Nonnie and my sweat 3 year old hand in hand.

We always have a great time at the Porters. With everyone around and Kayden having fun with Jonas, their house is always full of warmth and love. It has become such a comfortable place to be. There is always great food, lots of laughs and always lots of teasing me! It truly is a blessing that they include us because we think of them as such a big part of our family. And Michael was in rare form telling his crazy stories, I need to start a quote of the day from. Some can be a bit unclean. But they are too funny not to share.

We spent Labor Day at the park. We had a great picnic lunch and Kayden loved playing and feeding the ducks. The ducks took me back to when I was little and my Daddy would take me to Bear Creek park. It is fun to see your own child do things that you so loved doing. While we were having lunch Kayden would say "Mom that is so ahh-icious," it was very cute. :-) Just wish is was a bit cooler!

Since the 4th, I have been doing good. I don't think I ate that bad over the holiday. I tried very hard to eat better. Today my mom brought over Sonic for lunch. Tea, Tots, and a foot long chili cheese dog. I kindly said, thanks but no thanks! I was very proud of myself since it is my fave. I am looking forward to cooking dinner. Corn Chowder, Cranberry Pecan Salad. Never made it before. I have also worked out twice this week!!

This weeks goal: No Sweet Tea, Be under 150 and Work out 4 times.... I can do this.

Looking for insight on the inside

I saw the movie Julie and Julia today, and it has inspired me. First it was a delightful movie, full of laughs, heart and perseverance. But if these two women can live their lives by learning to cook thus learning to live then, why can't I do the same thing? Yes, I failed yet again on the weight issue. I did not reach my goal, I'm still fat. After I got sick in July I stopped. There is allot to blog and catch up on from the past few months. Michael's new job, Kayden's new preschool(which they both love), potty training, Girl's night out, family, seeing shows, and all other summer events. Which I will.

Then there is me.... Always looking for insight on the inside. I want to look in mirror and see happiness. I want to be proud of who I am. My 34th birthday is in 2 mouths from today, and yes I don't mind owning that number. I have a few goals in mind that I don't want to share yet. Fall is my favorite season, but always a hard time for me. It is bittersweet and takes me back to a past that I can't let go of. Moments and memories that I hold so close to my heart, the corners are bent and the vibrant colors are now faded. In the film, Julie spent a year cooking 500 + of Julia Child's recipes and changing her life along the way, I can make changes in two mouths. Change is good, tho fighting since I have failed so so many times before. But I should look at it and image this beautiful big blue Tiffany box which is in my arms' length. And all I must do is work a little harder to pop that lid off and see what wonderful treasure awaits me on the inside.