Cause what the hospital said I'm not buying....

Well it has been awhile since I have wrote anything....

My summer has not been the way I thought it would be. I was doing so good on WW, I was focus and excited then one Monday, in late June it all changed. I got off the phone with my JoJo, and started having awful stomach pains. Thankfully, my mom was over so I asked her to keep an eye on Kayden while I went and rested for a little bit. The pain got worst, so when I tried to take a few steps and buckled to the floor, I knew it was off to the E.R. We dropped Kayden off at my sister's, (against my better judgment, she did not even come out to the car and my mom knows how to manipulate me at my weakest)I thought every bump my mom hit, my insides were going to come out. At the E.R. the drs. ran test, ultra-sound, CAT, X-Rays, and thought most likely is was a kidney stone or an ovarian cyst. The pain was so bad I could not even cry. I was in a ball just praying it would stop. They kept asking me, on a scale of 1 - 10, what is your pain level? Oh a 42! I hate that question. They were giving me morphine shots every two hours, you would think that would have helped, nope, it did nothing. After all that the tests came back negative. I was the phantom case of the day. My dad came to check on me, and my parents behaved in the same small room. Cathy saved the day, she brought me underwear, I will not go anywhere without clean underwear. So after spending all day in the e.r., the doctors decided to keep me for observation. I got to my room about 8:30 p.m. Michael went home to try to keep things normal for Kayden. I am grateful that Kim watched him, but it did not change the issues between us. Mom stayed with me in the hospital, which I was glad because it was a rough night.

The next morning, at 7:30 more X-rays and a 5 second visit from the hospital doctor. They brought me my b-fest and I was hoping for eggs and bacon, nope all liquids! So I still had the tummy pain, and was just trying to rest. When who walks through the day, an aunt I had not seen or talked in two years. What the Heck!! What give her the right to step foot in the room was beyond me. If you are not going to be supportive of me in my everyday life, do not think for a moment you can try to when I am at a low point. My fist responds was why are you here, then Michael stepped in. While she sat glaring a me, her little followers kept calling. She was not there out of concern for me, but to be nosy and gather the wrong information. If you want to find out if I'm ok, call me not someone else. Oh I was mad, mad mad!! Time past and Kayden came for a visit and did good. As Dena, Mom and I talked and waited, still no doctor or results. The nurse kept saying the doctor would be doing rounds that night.

Now I think I am a kind person useually, but at about 8:30 pm, after not seeing a doctor all day I was upset. I told the nurse, I wanted to go home. My pain was manageable, I made them remove my 3rd IV, got dressed and was waiting. The nurse said the doctor would be in before 11:00 p.m. then I could go, meanwhile Michael and I got into a disagreement, my pain returned, and I decided to stay. Yes, I had a break down After being poked 3 more times for another IV, I got some pain meds, tried to get comfortable and fell asleep. At 5:00 am the next morning, here comes the doctor. He said the pain was due to a small cyst and sent me home to rest and with meds. Since I been home for two and half weeks, I been trying to take easy. The pain is still there. Not as bad, but still there. I have two doctors visits coming up so maybe we can find out what is really going on, cause what the hospital said I'm not buying....

I have been really down lately, not wanting to do much and not caring. Just trying to get through the day and wanting to sleep. Very frustrated. There is a lot to still say about things going on and to come but that is another blog for another day.